too sum things up

yay : adv, step, jac, scrc, family, friends, birthdays, life, angels & new phone soon.

nay : school, losing cross & phone, no responses from applied jobs, peer pressure.

be back soon.

i had a blast

sup guys. so i found sometime to type my thoughts. hm today im probably gonna talk about my time at canada. starting from sunday i had a good flight. pretty chill and i got some sleep. i was able to get through customs and what not quickly too. ateh chris was a phone call away and she was already outside by the time i stepped out. man just seeing her and the smile on her face. it brought me back to the good in life. no stress, nothing to worry about... the definition of a real vacation. we went to eat at Harveys where they had some delicious burgers. then we had a long car ride to Oshawa where they are currently staying. we pulled up to the driveway and i carried my luggage out of the trunk and right up the stoop. Ateh opened the door and could smell the aroma of their house. oh how much i missed it though. I walked to the kitchen where i saw kuya edsel feeding catherine. man she has grown through the past couple months. it reminds me of all the memories i spend in canada. we had to leave an hour or so later to my aunties trailer cottage another hour away. We arrived around 8pm after a bumpy ride with windy roads upon the arrival. Auntie was waiting at the sliding door and so was Caitlin, she was yelling "mommy mommy mommy and daddy daddy" while auntie judith saw me and gave me a hug. I helped unload the car full of suitcases and bags. uncle was already in their garden starting the bonfire. we had dinner and i changed up. stepped outside and we roasted marshmallows and hotdogs. yum! caitlin ate chris and i day one only consisted of probably 8 hours but it had so much in store. day two i woke up around 9am.. it was a monday. and had a filling breakfast. we put on your trunks and bathing suits because we planned on going to victoria beach in cobourg. it was a small beach but the weather was much better than the typical sf weather - even though sf weather was pretty nice recently. We chilled in the sun. ate hotdogs, eggsalad sandwiches, meatballs with plum sauce and chips. with some frozen juice boxes as drinks. later on i played in the sand with my neice caitlin. we dug holes and made sand castles. she easily warmed up to which was a different story long before. when it was time to leave we bought milkshakes in that area and drove to the big apple in cobourg. pretty nice apple pie factory. during our visit there, there were train rides, jumpy houses and bumper cars. and it was all ran by one old man who was quite forgetful. we gave him tickets for the train ride and then he walked us to the gate and asked us for our tickets? ahah weirdo. poor old man. next stop was back to the trailer. we all took showers and ate dinner once again while watching ratatouille. That was a pretty good movie! Hm so that night we sat outside but i didnt roast anything this time and i was really tired. Surprisingly i stayed up a little later and had conversations with ateh and kuya at midnight while i ate some of the delicious apple pie. Tuesday was aunties birthday. day three of my stay. i woke up late but heard caitlin ateh and kuya sing happy birthday. Auntie came in to wake me up at around 1030 and i wished her a happy birthday. She made me some eggs and sausage which was very good. i think a lot of food i eat are pretty good though. and probably around 1130 i decided to read which i fell asleep about ten minutes later. Caitlin and Enrique were running around the house and woke me up the kept taking my pillow and both said "wake up sleepyhead" while they had those little baby giggles. I was told to step outside because we were to have lunch on the deck. it was about 230pm. a lot of the family saying happy birthday and ate more good food. pad thai noodle, rice and i dont remember the rest. there was some lemony cheesecake that me and kuya shared a slice of. (and the funny thing was, auntie didnt blow out her candles after we sang) Around 4pm we left back to the house and said our goodbyes to auntie and uncle. We were gonna see them again on friday though. When we got back to the house we order pizza hut and went to blockbuster to rent out some movies. As we arrived home from blockbuster i dont remember wwhat happened. I'll finish the blog about last week next time. peace

maaan oh maaan

I seem to be fighting too much with my mom. Its stupid.. hella reminds me of when my mom and dad fought a lot. i keep tryna think of ways to let my thoughts out of my chest and for some reason i keep turning to people or blogspot. but think that theres only one thing i should turn to, God. Im tryna get back and active with JAC! =) There seems to be less trials and tribulations now but those few that i have are biggiesss. SUMMERINTENSIVE! week 2. after tmo, ive done 8/10 classes. i cant make next week or APT tryouts coz ima be in canada but its all good i guess. Im excited for Canada, i wonder what festivities are in store.

hi guys

i havent done this in a while. soo this week has been making me really sore coz of wspa intensive. so far, goodjob pat, chris, aggie, and today jason. i get all this choreo down and then when we get in groups i mess up. haha whatever... oh i was looking at my notes i was tagged in and it was from zah. and it talked about pure happiness and its making me miss her even more! ok time to video chat with yobbyree and jonblaq. no homo haha

Rest in Paradise

To my dear friend Zahra Era. I couldn't believe the news when I first
heard it. I tried to hold my tears in because I was in such disbelief.
But when Brigg told me, I sat there dropped my phone and started to cry.
I just wanted to bring back my few but great memories with you.

So we first met at JAC 85 when we had practice for bedtime skit. The way
you presented yourself to me made me feel like I already knew you, like
we've been friends for quite some time. Then came along the actual
retreat where we cracked jokes about everything and how u helped with
flower skit and I was the assigned as the crier. oh and the christos
skit we did for the staff and candidates for big show. and we would
share all these little things with eachother during graduation. and
surprisingly I gave u advice! haha wow right? damn zah, its probably
only two months knowing you but you were such a great friend. you always
wanted to hangout and I never was able to when you asked. and I always
wanted to bake with you! =) oh you still owe me another facebook survey.
you said you would put random facts on there, specifically the ones you
told me! it still doesn't feel like you're gone. I wanted to bring up
how you always comforted me when I was sad or upset, when I had problems
with my family, or anything at all. you IMed me weekly to check up on me
and always asked me to come back to JAC. you always told "JAC may be the
least of your priorities but don't let God be the least of your
priorities". I love you zahra era! and you'll be missed dearly. We'll
see you soon!